Monolog

Suddenly I want to talk to myself. Its more like a question for me. Siyesly, I need major revamping my iman. Okay zafirah, what is your purposes of life? Are u sincerely submit yourself to Allah? Are you doing what He told you do? Wake up! Just wake up from all of these false hope! What have you done to gain His Blessing? Are you always remember(zikr) Him? Do you show or feel gratitude with all of His nikmat? Do you? Do you?

Is you Iman is strong right now? Let say, if you die this second or this very moment, which side will you be? Heaven or Hell? You say you want to be in Heaven, to gain Allah's Pleasure.. Yet, what are the things you do? Please, don't just talk, but walk the talk! Remember, this life is just a dream. A DREAM. Don't fall for it..

Are you a good daughter? do you always pray for your parents? How bout your siblings? Your brother & sister? How could you live in happiness while there's another part of the world which your brother are facing war, losing their beloved ones and many more? 

Frankly speaking, what you did is not enough! Your Iman is not consistence. You watch maksiat everyday. Besides, you do zina(zina hati, mata dll) everyday! You don't preserve yourself like Islam told to. You talk to guy who is not your husband. PS: Bare in mind that you don't belong to anybody except Allah. Don't give you heart to someone and forget about Allah. ASTAGHFIRULLAH!!! I need to prserve my heart.. ;( Maybe you don't know where you stand, but to compared to other muslims in this world since prophet Adam, you just ordinary muslim. Muslim who has weak Iman. Who does not totally submit themselves to Allah..

Astaghfirullahalazim.. O Allah, please show me your hidayah. Your Nur. Help me to cleanse my heart and nurture me with strong Iman. Please, please, get me away from MAKSIAT and things that make me away from you. Don't let the syaitan lie to me with all the false hope and things that led me to zina. I want to die as a someone who gained your Blessing. as the 'golongan kanan'. I know, with my deed and sins, It still not enough. So, give me chances and hidayah so I can improve myself. You know what is best for me. Thus, only to You I depend on too. Subhanallah. From Allah who created me, and to Allah I shall return..

* With tonnes of regrets, " I need to IMPROVE my Iman.."

5 things

" Remember 5 things before 5 things.."

Siyesly its been quite long period since I heard this nasheed. This song is a good remainder for all of us.

* LIMA perkara *
1. Sihat sebelum sakit
2. Muda sebelum tua
3. Kaya sebelum miskin
4. Lapang sebelum sempit
5. Hidup sebelum mati

so, let me elaborate a bit about what I understand.

Okay, these 5 things is likely the basic component for us to gain happiness. Yet, only few of us appreciate and realized it before its too late. Like what had been stated in Quran, many human will die in regrets. These might be the regression that is meant. When human have these 5 things, they tend to be 'alpa' and not grateful. Its like 'lupa diri'. For example, when ppl r healthy and young, ppl spend most of their time with entertainment and 'duniawi stuffs'. In contrast, when ppl are dying or getting old, then they started to do more ibadah. It is a bit saddening when u see old people struggling to redeem themselves. Hey, we are young. We should submit ourself to Allah no matter what age we are. Our death will not be delayed or vice versa. So, we never know.

As for who have money that can afford more than his family, give it to charity. It just like you returning back what Allah had gave to you. If u give 1, He will repay you 10 times more. Hence, there are no loss when u r doing deeds, aite? Do it to gain His blessing and not for showing off.

Leisure. This is about time. Be grateful if u still got the time to FB, blogging, watch TV, pray and many more. This are the nikmat that not many humans get. If u have leisure time, spend it to beribadah. to get closer to Him. if we are in the war, there are no possibly way we can pray in relaxation or calamility. Thus, instead 24hours FB-ing, spend 15 minutes to read Quran or pray. (insyaAllah)

"Live life to the fullest". haha. I could not remember which advertisement but that quote is true though. we should spend our life by preparing for hereafter. Collect all the deeds as a redeemtion token for our sins. Life is just a deceiving dream. yes, it show us all the wonderful thing we desires. But it is only temporary. U need to bare in mind that our goal is not only in this world, but at hereafter too.

Al-Jannah or An-Nar : You choose

Just do not regret later from your actions nowadays. Together we changed ourselves to become a better person. *with God's will*

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah. Grateful to Allah. 

Sye dpat 4.00 PNG ntuk sem 1 exmnation. Tiap kali pkr psl result, sye akn menanges sbb sgt2 besyukur kpade Allah. I'm not the brightest student, yet He still give my this nikmat. Siyes sgat tekejut ble dpat tau. Sye xkesa dpat brape pointer, jnj Allah redha. Alhamdulillah dpat skor. Pastu ble hari anugerah, dpat tokoh akademik. Subhanallah. Mmg mggeletar a kaki. Bnyk lgi student yg perform, tpi sye yg terpilih. Lgi2 both of my parents dpat naek pentas amek skali anugerah. Cite ni bkn nak belagak atau mnunjuk, cume nk tnjuk betape penyayangnya Allah SWT.

Ok, smbung cite kat ats.. Sjk Form 3 sye doa spaye dpat jdi tokoh murid ntuk bggekn parents sye & mohon ntuk dpat 4.00 flat. Tpi xpernah kesampaian un sbb ade yg lagi layak. Sye xpernah kecewa pun.. Cume, as time goes by, sye x engat da ape yg sye doa dulu. Tpi bile msuk KMKN, Allah bgi due nikmat tu skali terus. Waktu tngah muhasabah diri, bru engat wktu kecik2 pernah doa kat Allah, n bru skarang Allah mkbulkan. Betullah, Allah akn makbulkn doa hambaNya. He know when is the right time. I really shocked when He still remember my pray. Subhanallah. He is Amazing. So, no wonder a..

< Cara-cara doa dimakbulkan >

- Serta merta atau ditangguhkan

- Digantikan dengan yang lebih baik

- Dibalas di akhirat

As conclusion, kite jgn putus harapan ngan Allah. He knows what are the best for us. Everything happen has it sense. This is one of my experiences. U also have yours too. Be grateful and always depend on Him for everything that u do in ur life. If u said u dont have any experiences like that, try muhasabah and reflect what u have. With this, u'll see that Allah is always there for u. InsyaAllah.

< Cara besyukur >

1. Guna Hati : sentiase zikir pada Allah

2. Guna Lisan : ucap Alhamdulillah & hanye berkate perkare yg x sie2

3. Perbuatan : Bnyakkn beribadah pada Allah

4. Mggunekn nikmat Allah ke arah kebaikan.

  

Mission :

TAZKIYATUN NAFS.

InsyaAllah. :)