It strike me.

A new 'amanah' was given to me. In the beginning, I was soo excited and already imagining the things that I'll be doing with my new 'amanah'. Weehooo! (the details of my imagination wont be shared :p)

But then, it strike me. And it strike me real hard.

I realised that this 'amanah' will be my new responsibilities that I have to carry. More questions that I have to answer on The Judgement Day. N yes, I am afraid.
I wiil be questioned about my new 'amanah'. Either I used it for Allah's sake or I do it to fulfill my nafs? Either this 'amanah' will bring me closer to Allah or farther? :( 

Dub dap dub dap.. (heart is beating faster)

The more responsibilities someone have, then the easier for them to be thrown into the hell if they dont perform it properly.

Dont get me wrong, I didnt meant that responsibilities are bad. NO. It is a good thing though because Allah know you are capable to perform it. Amongst many people, you are chosen. :D Allah is Maha Mengetahui & for surely Allah wont test us for something beyond our capabilities. (Surah al-baqarah: 286) So, no worries aye? ;)

Thus, let us perform our responsibilities & amanah merely for Allah's sake. N hopely, these 'amanah' will defend us on The Judgement Day. Because, one thing for sure, on that Day, we need all the help we can get. InsyaAllah. :)

Life is a continous test.

It is you who strayed away.

Haq & batil itu dua perkara yg sgt berbeza. Mana mungkin boleh campur atau samakan.. Bila hati dikuasai oleh perkara2 haq, perkara batil dengan perlahan makin pudar. Namun sebaliknya, jika perkara batil yg bertakhta di jiwa, haq yg ada pada diri semakin lenyap.

Maka, mulalah qalbu terasa kosong, resah gelisah & mula mencari-cari apa yg mampu utk mengisi jiwa yg kosong itu.. Bilamana hati di isi dgn perkara batil, "kekosongan" itu x akn pernah terisi. Tetapi bila di isi dgn perkara haq, hati menjadi subur & "terisi" :)

Sebenarnya, Allah xpernah jauh dgn kita, hambaNya. Malah, lebih dekat dari urat leher! (Surah Qaf:16) :') Bila kita baru nk tnye tntg Allah, Allah terus berfirman bahawa Allah itu dekat (Surah al-baqarah:186) :D

Betullah ade org kate, Allah xpernah pun jauh dari kita walau seinci. Tapi kita sbgai hambaNya yg sombong sbnarnye yg menjauhkn diri :( Allahu Allah..

Jgn putus asa dgn rahmat Allah.. (Surah az-zumar:53) Ayuh perbnyakkan istighfar & usaha utk dekatkn diri pada Allah yang Maha Pengasih <3 :'D

* A reminder for me. Ingat! Allah never moved away from you. It is you who strayed away from Him. :'( Astaghfirullahalazim.